Showing posts with label stuck. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stuck. Show all posts

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Standing still (a bit of a ramble)

Life is pretty awesome these days.
I have a great family, awesome friends, an adorable apartment, my dream car, and a fun job.  
When life goes so well I tend to focus on the things that need improvement.  I should soak up all the goodness and enjoy how great things are but I tend to focus on the less great areas that need attention.  School, for instance, ties-in many aspects of my 'dark' areas of life.  I am considering taking photography classes at MSSU.  Either that or going in the total opposite direction and taking social work classes (just that'd be a stretch, as much as I'd love it.)  I don't know just how passionate I am about photography.  Wait, that's false.  I adore taking photos.  I don't love editing photos.  Plus, with so many photographers around it's hard to compete - especially when I'm not a confident, skilled photographer.  That's why classes would help.  
I feel I am at such a stand-still right now.  Like I have to make a decision about my future and not just go with the flow, even though it's a nice life flow.  I want more.  I want to be more.  Target is a fine job but making lattes is not a career.  It feels like a transitional job.  Just yesterday my ninety-day review was written and it mentioned me moving up in the company.  The excitement in knowing another has that much faith in my performance is rewarding.  I just feel I've taken ten steps back in where I am currently working.  

Can you say Ramble McRamble Queen? I sure do know how to ramble on and on.  What I'm trying to say is I think it's time to look to the future and figure out where I want to go.  I'll continue to ask God where he wants to take me.  Until then, maybe you could say a little prayer for me.