The more I change, the more they stay the same.
Each visit home is a realization that I am not the person who left Massachusetts six years ago.
Anyone who looks at my comments on MySpace circa 2004-2005 knows that I was a crude, dirty-talking, foul mouthed, Jesus-bashing, rude, miserable "Masshole." Sorry I had to go there. I had little more than just my self to live for and it was evident. When you put yourself second to Jesus, life really takes a turn for the better.
Just last week I shared a story with my home group from my recent trip back east. While home, a conversation took place between my brother Jeff and myself. He started it. We talked of religions and how different each really is. He then said "You know which one I really can't stand?" Which? "Those born-again's!" I let him tell me how awful born-again Christians are, how they shove bibles in peoples faces, how your life before being born-again is total washed away and how your previous life and actions no longer exist. It was hard not to get angry or laugh in his face. Nonchalantly, I told him that I was "born again" three years ago in March of 2007. He got silent. I explained that while it may appear my life before is no longer it's my sins that were washed away by the blood of Jesus. That I have never shoved a bible in any persons face, nor would I. That I choose to live my life like Christ lived his life. He got quiet again. The conversation shifted to another subject shortly after. He noticed a change in me. The next day, while driving, he mentioned how he doesn't have a foundation in his life/family. That he's created his own foundation in his family. I said "Sadly, most people build their own foundation."
Just living for Him and like Him shows how different a person is. Visits home are a reminder of the old me while being more grateful for the reinvented, Christ-loving new me.